NaNoWriMo you will be my bitch!

When I consider all the stress going on in my life at the moment, I can see why it might seem utterly insane to take on the challenge of NaNoWriMo. However (otherwise known as BBBBBUUUUUTTTT) I cannot resist the lure and urge of the challenge. So, I will once again, be trying to attempt the near impossible ... But this year ... IT WILL BE MINE!!!
*insert evil laughter here*

Freight Train

It's the sound and the rumble
It vibrates through the soles
Of her over worn in shoes

She fears her own desire
To run away in the most ultimate
Of unforgivable ways

The way it thrums in her chest
Building a crescendo of feelings 
That are usually nothing but a bad day

She steps back, farther then she needs
The yellow line notf ar enough 
away from her imagination

It passing, the rumble rolling thunder 
in a suburb far far away
Never mind, she will be fine

Lines

I usually don't so much cross them
But I tap dance right over, back and forth

And then I normally trip over myself and land on my arse
But, at least I'm laughing

Unknown Dream

Heading downstairs
Each step, takes a year
Back I slip
It's the smell
It permeated from the kitchen counter

There it sits, the styrofoam box
The culprit that sent me back
Ten years, twenty
It's been too long

Nostalgia washes over me
In waves of warmth sweetness

The small red shapes of memory
Outside seeds, green tops
And temptation that makes me salivate

I bite, the first since a lifetime or more
Into memories forgotten behind
Painful later events

I push back the treacherous tears
And smile
Mornings up before the sun
Waking, curled in my blanket
In the the back of the multi colour tank

The smell is like an old blanket
And it's never going to be
For my own children
It's the thing that breaks my heart

My childhood, the rock of forever
Plowed into the earth of never again
And dreams of returning
Bigger and better, happy and healthy
A child to teach the technique to
Washed away so suddenly
When before now, I never ever realized
It was a dream I wanted to share with them